Loose Girl (43-85)

Summary:
The setting starts off at Kerry's father house, when her father tries to give her advice. He tells her not to screw up the chances she has with her new boyfriend, Paul. As usual, Kerry storms out of the room and goes into her bedroom, cutting the rest of the world off. Paul is a wrestler and he invited Kerry to come to one of his matches, Kerrys dad drives her to the location of the match, Tylers school. Paul goes to the same school as Kerrys sister, Tyler. After the match, Paul and Kerry make plans to hang out and when they do hang out Kerry ends up upsetting Paul with her demanding remarks and he breaks up with her. Though, this is not the end of Kerrys problems, Tyler became depressed. Since their mother was not around, Tyler had no one to talk to, or to let her emotions out, so she didn't. Kerrys mother called every Sunday, Tyler was always happy and anxious to pick up the phone and speak to her mother, but Kerry avoided talking on the phone at all times. Kerry felt closer to her father than her mother because her dad let her do anything she wanted, without the restrictions that her mom would make. To add onto Kerrys large list of problems, Kerry hated her body, she thought she was fat and constantly wished she could cut off the meat on her thighs. Soon Kerrys friend, Amy got a car and this allowed them to be free. They went to clubs all night and did not return home untill four in the morning. Kerry liked going to clubs to pick up boys, unlike Amy who wanted strong relationships, not just hook-ups. This disagreement lead Kerry to believe that Amy was not someone that she wanted to be associated with, so their friendship ended. Instead, Kerry becomes friends with the popular girls. More family problems occur and Tyler fights with Kerry about picking a side, moms or dads, this fight changes Kerrys whole attitude. She becomes rebellious, taking drugs more frequently, and partying all night. On a Sunday, her mother calls and Kerry talks to her. Her mother told her trhat she was aware of her behavior and warned her about the negative outcomes, and as usual, Kerry ignores her mothers advice.

Quote:

"I spent half my life lying about who I am and what I want. I don't even know who I am most of the time." (Cohen 80)

Reaction:

Kerry writes about her life in detail. She explains every little part of what occured in her life, and how she gave into everything. The quote I picked showed exactly how she felt, she did not know who she was. Her identity was a mystery to her because she only cared about what other people thought about her. In life, many people do not know who they are until a certain age, but Kerry doesn't seem to learn as the years go by. She lied about herself because she wanted to fit in, she wanted boys to like her. Though, she realizes that no good was coming from being so reliant on people who did not care about her at all. I believe that everyone has an urge of fitting in in society but Kerry takes it to a whole other level. She uses her body to get boys to like her, and she see's that it might do more damage then might help her.